Confused

Its like a new start But at the same time, Im at the finish line Its like I've gained something But at the same time, I've lossed I feel empty But yet im full Im sad inside And at the same time Im happy I gave So that i could get What i gaveup wasnt alot but it has a hold on me What i got makes what I had seem..seem...unworthy Its like I've accomplished something But it wasnt enough I left the old life I've moved on So why am I crying Why doesnt this feel right I dont wanna go back but I dont wanna stay I've gained so much But at the same time I've lost a huge amout I'm confused and im lost Im cold yet Im hot Im hungry yet im full I dont know if i should make a left or a right I dont know if im wrong or right It's a new start But im standing at he finish line...