Confused

My heart is crying a million tears; My soul is screaming like never in years! This rebellion in me..... I just can't let it be! What am I suppose to do? Who am I? Tell me who? I have tried loving and caring, and my heart i have been sharing. But now........ I'm confused??? My brain should understand ..... it refused! The love and joy we've shared in the past I wonder how long that still will last? Jealousy is a nasty creature; It damages lives, it warps your feature I'm sick of crying and tired of trying! Apology on apology No thank you, no more for me!