Competitive Spirit

Do you think of me when you're gone? Do you believe I can move on? Darling, I'm sorry if I hurt you in anyway Someday, I will reach the finish line, okay? I know you don't care much for me But, I will be free with sunlit glee I know you loved me once upon a time Once upon a time, we were birds that took wing Birds that can freely sing Once upon a time, I had a competitive spirit But I gave up and now I'm guilty this time I'm chained to this feeling of shame and I'm throwing a mighty fit Now, I'm the criminal that committed a terrible crime I will not regret the past as I see fit I'm trapped in lonely chambers in my head The sorrow I've put you through - I'm still not over it I'm fighting off yesterday's dread...putting my doubts to bed I know you don't care much for me But, I will be free with sunlit glee I know you loved me once upon a time Once upon a time, we were birds that took wing Birds that can freely sing Once upon a time, I had a competitive spirit But I gave up and now I'm guilty this time I'm chained to this feeling of shame and I'm throwing a mighty fit Now, I'm the criminal that committed a terrible crime My competitive spirit's gliding with glory and joy Despite being manipulated insane like a kid's toy I'm broken and it's so shameful I'll try to stand tall, though I feel awful I know you don't care much for me But, I will be free with sunlit glee I know you loved me once upon a time Once upon a time, we were birds that took wing Birds that can freely sing Once upon a time, I had a competitive spirit But I gave up and now I'm guilty this time I'm chained to this feeling of shame and I'm throwing a mighty fit Now, I'm the criminal that committed a terrible crime Do you believe in me when I'm running this race? Do you think I am an amazing grace or a total disgrace? Baby, I'm not sorry for the words I utter Your words were as suave and appealing as butter, But it stabbed me like a jagged knife I've been searching all over for you all my life All my life All my life I know you don't care much for me But, I will be free with sunlit glee I know you loved me once upon a time Once upon a time, we were birds that took wing Birds that can freely sing Once upon a time, I had a competitive spirit But I gave up and now I'm guilty this time I'm chained to this feeling of shame and I'm throwing a mighty fit Now, I'm the criminal that committed a terrible crime You made my day, despite your slight negativity I want to let go of worry and let my mind wrap around positivity You-you left me without a trace Beads of sweat rolls down my face Don't you dare say you're not beautiful or good enough Because you are my everything - it's pitiful that life is tough I know you don't care much for me But, I will be free with sunlit glee I know you loved me once upon a time Once upon a time, we were birds that took wing Birds that can freely sing Once upon a time, I had a competitive spirit But I gave up and now I'm guilty this time I'm chained to this feeling of shame and I'm throwing a mighty fit Now, I'm the criminal that committed a terrible crime I dodged the daggers of distress I won vast grace and I'm crowned with success I'm making grand progress I'm grinning with sunlit glee I want to be happy I want to be happy I want to be happy with me I want to be happy with you I want to be free I want you to leave me be I want you to be free For eternity