Common Sense On a Shelf

As the crimson color fades away, I think about all the hardships from every day. I am the only one that truly knows about my pain, The pain I face each day, that never seems to go away. I do not ever regret any of the damage I did to myself, But I do regret leaving my common sense to gather dust on the shelf. I knew that what I was doing was not okay, But I insisted on continuing every day. The starving, The cutting, The fasting, The binging, I wish I could restart from the beginning. I watched me destroy myself, Because I left my common sense on a shelf. I continued to watch my life pass me by, As everything around me began to die. I clearly remember losing every single friend, Because they could not stand being there from beginning to end.