Clown Smile

I paint it on everyday Nobody could ever tell I will never say Of my personal hell I'm a little insecure But you can't break me down This smile isn't pure But I won't wear a frown I'm the Queen of fake smiles But I'm also my own jester It stretches out for miles And it's made of polyester I want this nightmare to end I'm running out of paint It's not a cool trend Everyday I have to repaint Looking at the mess I made I don't make a sound I lay down my blade I have to stand my ground *Written on April 3, 2012*