Close Minded

at times i feel as if the world is coming down on me but the only reason is because i refuse the truth to see its always been there right there but i failed to look there i thought i looked eveywhere i didnt want to change you or save you i just wanted you to realize theres others ways the world to view i let myself love you to much i let myself get to close to use to your touch why did i stay when i knew that the right thing was to leave why did i accept all you did even though in you i didnt believe i waited for you to see the good in me i even let you mistreat me, abuse me even lie and cheat it was all in vane because after six years im stuck all i got was a good high and sometimes a good suck now you got me how you wanted sittin like a duck pregnant and straight down on my luck one thing you fail to realize is that i never needed you you needed me and that was my fuel i lived off knowing that with out you be lost and even though you always hurt me we stayed together at all cost i have always knew that what i had to do but my plans always failed and lead me back to you i was a different i am adifferent person around you when it came to us i couldnt think out the box i was consumed emotionally mentally i was extremely confused but how was i if i always knew what i had to do. i never understood why you never wanted to see things my way it was always forget what i thought and what i say but i still found it in my heart to love and care for you easily i just wanted you to see, love me for me unconditionally there was a time when i would of put for you my life on the line but today is a new day and i decided you were never mine it is easy to say goodbye when there is no sweet or no bittersweet memories all we had was a routine that never was good for our lives so on this note i have to just say good bye ps. please be good and do what you have to do. its all about you LILLIVETTE