Christmas Gift

I hear the merry sounds of Christmas carols resound all around me I meander in and out of shops wandering about the brightly lit arcades bright coloured lights wink joyfully at me from every doorway as I drag my feet looking about searching for the perfect gift to shower on you my beloved! I search for the perfect gift the one that will clearly tell you that you are the one the gift that will touch my heart screaming out to me that it’s the one for you the one that will touch your heart at your first sight of it and scream that I am the one for you “Joy to the world”, “We wish you a merry Christmas”, “Felis novidad” throb all around me sounding over and over again from unseen speakers , rendering me embraced by the melodies “All I want for Christmas”, croons Mariah Carey voicing my wish in loud beats and rhythms then I see him, he stands riveted before the toyshop staring intently at lavishly displayed toys particularly the huge red jeep such yearning, such craving is sculpted on his toddler face in that moment I look into a mirror and see my yearning, my craving the haunting desire for a fading dream the tangible craving for the waning moon reflected perfectly on his face my heart jerks painfully as his mother wrenches him away from the toyshop window tugging repeatedly at his arm, tagging him along as he drags his feet his eyes though misted always looking back at the toyshop I lean against the cold brick wall and sigh as Mariah soulfully ends her Christmas wish song I know your Christmas wish gift my love; in moments when your heart is still when you think I see not I see you crave and yearn your desire to be let free to flap your wings and soar away but like the boy at the toyshop window I know I can’t get it for you so I push myself from the wall and continue my search for the perfect gift meandering in and out wandering around the bustling shops humming tunes of merry Christmas melodies.