Chemical Blood

A simple hint of sadness a sudden flash of memory Mind opens flood gates dark clouds come seeping in Rivers of emotion take over as ink begins to flow Page after bloody page of nightmarish dreams Nothing is sacred not even my innocence Do I dare to tell the tales of times long past Death and disappointment quickly flow from my pen Confidences broken by whispers of infidelity Pride can not linger here for I am undeserving Heavy burdens lay at my feet I struggle to carry Rocky roads traveled bare feet sliced with each step Weight of the past wears down on bloody shoulders A tale to be told yet lips will not part to speak Tattered pages fill blood stained notebook Woven web of madness beginning to make sense Abuse not only to the flesh my mind as well Broken not just bones my spirit no longer shines Alone even standing among the crowd Cold steel brings my only sense of feeling Open doors yet I can not seem to escape Blade to flesh drops of blood release of pain Bind my pages hide them well ink runs dry Chemical blood flows through my veins Thoughts grow cloudy all dreams cease Days pass emotions seemingly inexistent Induced smile turns up unwilling lips Ice blue eyes unable to weep hidden tear Inside screams echo loudly smile remains Can they see my inner torment raging? Do chemical smiles fool even those that know me? Pill bottles at bedside Press firmly to open cap Script reads increase dosage if thoughts resurface One turns to six, six to ten who’s counting anyway Lips to glass quench this thirst swallow capsules Dreams will cease along with breathing eyes close Death takes me, suffer no more. pill bottles on my floor