Chaotic Pace

Am I the snail in the universe, a sloth Blame it on me for taking a turtle initiative, going slow and steady Cause I move too fast like a hare that I just collapse 3 on my floor from boredom Dread to tell you the truth, what moves fast are my shows Even my eyes hold still, blinking only when they feel the burn like they caught fire Forge them into juggernauts so I don't feel this pain again Go against my genetic makeup, turn me producer instead of a space filler Here I am just going nowhere I've been the same stagnant person for as long as I can remember Jesting like a joker to be taught like a dog a few new tricks Knick-knacks are what I collect to fill this void growing Like I need something else in my life I love that I'm not prepared to lose My bad, did I spill the beans to the plot of my chaotic story Negate the negativity so I can see this glass half full instead of half empty Omit this fear, this paranoia screaming at my bravado turning him coward Please find my Anastasia, tell her to come to me Question her, ask her, demand her to fork over the whereabouts of the rest of me Restoration of me relies on what I can replace but I can't replace what she took She stole from me, disappeared into thin air, another sorceress for my memoirs Take me to Juliet so I can scream at her for abandoning me Uncensored, no bleeps nor beeps to mask my frustration Victory, it would mean victory yet I already claimed my vengeance Woe is me, I'll never say those words; they don't exist in my vocabulary Xray me, all I have are broken bones Years have not been so kind to me Zero, hey I see you again; make me a hero again or just help me end this...fin'