Changed: imploded broken vanished summonedreturned

New new new Clean clear powerful activity, unleashed wings upstairs Protective instinct bonded to stability Monitor on, guarding, titrating all sensory and physical input Past seeking, obsessing on relief in dark lost forced absenting this plane Past pushing and stretching time away, red flag slapping my face, “stop look closely dare see” Focusing fully NOW on amplifying, maintaining the fresh satisfied giddy experience awake I don’t need suppression, regulation, filing of edges for my body mind junction entity I feel know the chemical regimen chosen for and by me Don’t make muddy please I am back in the office communicating, now awake now desiring deeply now understanding differently now graduating the walker Am I improved? I am and I will be proud and keep it Wiped away in the shocks of rebirth my circadian dysregulation! Oozing tar of dysfunction touching food, health, relationships, safety, mood, hope Sleep has become the gentle, warm blanket for mental emotional physical regrouping….I stared and stared to know it Too I sing! I sing internally connected breathing release! Injections of confidence smelled enchantingly, mesmerizingly, of SHE wife partner friend lover teammate soulmate No longer draining futility investing myself in every today, my future visible down a path in these rebuilt todays My choice, my complete self investment, now I may live it Fascinating to stop treading water Unbelievably magically rewarding to blink upon a dawn when coveted transmutes to experienced enjoyed Now I accelerate Handle, build, correctly accurately confidently Safely, Safely I scrubbed my vessel and started digging out rot and restructuring the me:world interface Drive to accomplish…handle delicately, guide carefully If it burns agitates, threatens to tear away efficiency worse logic Exit to the present moment Breath be here…you hold and know now Okay