Change In Me

Oh lord I'm changing, So rapidly and drastically.. I know not what i'm doing.. I try to find myself in me. Don't exactly remember who I was and what I am now.. Time passes as it does But this time has let this change to reality Times there are that I wonder Why am I surrounded by so many Indifferent people around me Or am I the the alien one Can't live my life through with it Can't change myself for something That I never was and never will be Every day i wake up Look myself in the mirror 'Disgusted' utters for the vision itself Oh, such is the pain i'm living in Most people choose to move on Well i wish to stay, To keep a hold to myself.. To be my own guardian angel. I'm so lost that when i look behind I cannot remember When I was true to myself. The road i'm in right now Is so long that i don't see a better future Fed up of all the worldly happiness.. I'll be happy when this is all over When i'll find myself..