Cause and Effect

Cause and Effect In my youth I did not understand the difference between love and lust. Always seeking out Love's location but never to locate. Then our eyes met upon a faithful winds gust. That was the date in my heart love was finally able to articulate Truths fire. My heart began to instantly rewire putting on loves true attire. In that moment my soul began to aspire. In that moment she was the only light, all my other thoughts falling through a grate. The only thought in my sight was the song of her Hearts choir. To hear her song and all its fullness was my only desire. Weeks past, she was my teammate, my shipmate, my classmate, my roommate, she was my fate. Instantly becoming the true occupier, the true magnifier, the indefinite multiplier, the helpmate Love's true supplier. The only one to calm my soul to make me Focus and place the chaos of my mind in a pyre. Then my heart began to suffocate. All I wanted was to hear her every laugh, Comfort every tear and have a family with her but I knew to truly cherish her heart so that her love could grow and cultivate I told her to join the Army for I am not worthy of an Angel so great. I could not elaborate to her that my mind was shredded more than sawdust. Pushing her away made my heart combust. I could not tell her that I died when I was four through an act of violence and hate. Knowing my Brokenness would only frustrate, humiliate and intimidate her soul causing an unending sadness and anguish in her heart to illuminate. After boot camp she said goodbye allowing me to pray as she laid on the beach. I know the memory as if it was yesterday. Yes everytime I think of her or see her sadness and anguish consumes my thoughts but it's worth even death to know she has a chance of a life filled with the love of agape. Understand a Vow from the heart is more than an oath, pledge, promise, Covenant, Bond, profession, commitment, yes far more than an affirmation. Only Love Can truly Captivate, emulate and reciprocate the Embodiment of the Agape Atmate. The souls identity in actuality will not seek vanity. Comprehend Truths strategy do not casually or absently discard Truths morality. Think of love passionately and rationally as you understand the Atmate of Truths valency. Fervently seeking the smile of your loves canopy. With fervency seeking the sanity and harmony of your heart, gives the true definition of Charity. That is the Soulmate.