Cant Live With It Or Without It

I'VE BEEN FORCED TO FACE ALOT OF TRUTHS THIS LAST YEAR TRYING TO FIND OUT WHAT REALLY MATTERS WHAT GOOD IS A WORLD WITHOUT LIFE IN IT FEELING COMPLETLY INEFFECTIVE TRYING TO FILL THE VOID IN MY HEART ABSORBING A DREADFUL LONLINESS THATS GRIPPING ME WASTING PRECIOUS TIME LAST OF MY COMPUSURE DISAPPEARING DESPERATION MAKING ME LIGHT-HEADED SO MANY MONTHS OF EMOTIONIAL TORMENT FIGHTING TO HOLD ON TO A BIT OF HOPE UNCOMFORTABLE WITH HEARING MY OWN VOICE FRUSTRATED AND CONFUSED ALL THE TIME LONGING FOR THAT IMMEDIATE COMFORT A FEELING SIMILAR TO REASSURANCE HOW MUCH MORE OF THIS CAN I TAKE CHOKING BACK EMOTIONS TO AVOID CRYING FEELING LIKE A RECIPEIENT OF PERPETUAL UNFAIRNESS THE PERSISTANT PART OF ME TRUSTED IMPLICITLY ENVISIONING MY REUNION WITH LOVE CONSTANTLY VENTURING INTO THE UNKNOWN FOR SOMETHING THAT MIGHT NOT BE THERE!!! HMMMMMMM