Can You Hear Me Up There Today?

can you hear me up there today away in eternity i hope you are proud of me so many years between us now i can't remember the sound of your voice or whatever you said without your photoraph your image is misty suddenly our time together disappeared unannounced it came to an end sometimes i think about why it had to turn out this way you up there me down here your departed soul left my childhood shattered i kept looking for you everywhere some people i met reminded me of you their unspoken manner made me feel safe oh how i missed you other times i wondered what life would be like id you were here by my side without the nearness of you i stumbled and fell searching for the missing pieces to recitify my mistakes i yearned for a chance to do what mothers and daughters do as my children grew i counted the moments lost precious time of love that only grandmothers could fill now on in years wrapped in the arms of wisdom i remiknese upon my life discerning all the numerous tears with a peaceful contenance i can finally comprehend that within all my darkest hours the echo of your love from above came in loud and clear your voice was my intuition "do not stray my dear i am here" can you hear me up there today i hope you are proud of me