Breaking Down

As I'm standing in the shower The water changes cold Now head hid in the corner Some tears start to mold But I don't cry 'cause it's freezing The chilly water just made me crack Stacked on top of everything And I try to choke sobs back I can't let anyone hear me I've never tried to whine So I'll just suffer silently Acting like I'm just fine And in fact I've played myself Denial to depression Pretended I had happy wealth And joy in my possession And who am I? To focus on me? Though it's a lie and truly fake Others can have it just as badly So I shouldn't fuss for their sake So I take a deep and long inhale Not wanting to open my eyes To see the ugly truth unveiled Just to put on my disguise December 2009