Breaking

Here I am again but this time it isn’t really me I am slowly dying inside Why doesn’t anyone see? I am unraveling and ready to break Unable to understand the emotions inside of me Unsure of what causes my heart to constantly ache As if a part of me is missing and will never be found If only I could go back and find it If time could be rewound Confused and weary of what it is that I need or want At night I close my eyes And run from my demons who continue to haunt Each day I am woken only to find myself all alone A tear falls down my face A constant sadness nobody should ever have known The pain holds me and controls me as if I’m tied to it with strings Holding me up at times while others it drops me down Holding me hostage with the madness it brings Contradicting feelings confuse me causing insanity to break free Uncertain how to escape the madness Which lives inside of me The walls cage me and hold me prisoner to my own hell I no longer bother to try to escape it There are no exits as far as I can tell I travel down roads which twist and turn without a beginning or an end Alone I am breaking Without any means to mend Wounds are too deep to heal and will never go away The scars they left behind decorate my heart and soul They dance all around me with sadness and fear every day Nobody realizes that I am not doing alright I smile when they are present And die a little bit more while I am alone at night