Black Heaven

My soul I have given freely Relaying upon threads sewn to my time My life I’m trying to live honestly Yet no Heavens belong for me to find They weave like a sadden web Stringing every ties known to memory Hidden tears unknown be wept Strung with earnest to a sadden melody Had I remember to be strung? To be carried beyond a carry in the world My world yet left me hung Yet were strings knotted never for twirl An outer Heaven I come to seek An inner Hell I’m brought forth to meet Wounds I did not suffer to bleed Yet... why do to Heavens I do still plead And I fall beyond my own Falling where light fails to shine Yet... am I to find a home? When a black heaven is to give its time