Bittersweet Solitude

All my thoughts evolve around you Like planets orbiting the dazzling sun All my dreams were spent on you and you were my priceless diamond But, all of my hope is shriveling away Like paper in the raging fire All of the shards of my heart are pierced together by your love I put my faith in you and I forgave you for all the wrongs you've committed I put my trust in you and I pray for your safety every night and day I sometimes catch myself thinking of you...writing poems about you before the dawn...before the sun rises from the east...after the sun descends from the west All that I've cherished in my life All that I've buried underneath the ground... Sank to the bottom of the perilous sea... I was caught in the waves of motion all the memories, like broken chords, ring in my head...marinating me with bittersweet emotion All hope turned to ash When you deserted me When you let go of my arms... no wonder your heart is cold and hardened with independence When you left me in the solitude When you slammed the front door You never signaled your leave You never waved goodbye I can feel you break free from your chains that held you captive The night awakens the mind of the poet...as he writes words of bittersweet pleasure oh dear beloved poet, you'd do me a favor by writing words of hope Carving me words of love... I'm dying for your light I'm flying with ravishing delight Watch me take flight!! I'm yearning for some light To shun out my nightmares And replace them with radiant dreams Do you still believe in me? Do you forgive me for blaming you for my sins and downfalls? I dream of being carefree I feel the need to fly away I feel like victory's close at hand Can't wait to arrive in His promiseland I dream of letting go of daily worries I feel the need to brush aside my dismay And relieve the pain From the aftershocks of my sorrows And hope for a brighter day To thrill my heart today...I say hello to each and every tomorrow I can feel the rhythm of your heart beats Drowning all the rest of the sounds It's distracting me From pondering suicide and selfish distress But I'm going with life's ride...my hope hasn't dried I won't hide in the dark...the light will soon find me and unveil me You saved me from drowning in my misery pool You utter words that fit the moment... I count every single one a joy Somehow you're my cure to my depression and you make me feel happy