Bittersweet Chords

And then she said to me, “Just keep yourself in mind as well. That’s all I ask…” And I felt the shards of pain in her soundless voice, though it was your grave’s soul speaking I wanted to embrace her for that eternal kiss of advice, Had I done so, I would never leave her side… Still my dear, I must go, to see more of this world To be there for my dear angel despairing In our heartfelt goodbyes, you well know my mind and heart are with you Love, I must be free now There awaits an untouched land to gaze and walk upon A new hand to touch and hold on to A purpose for my words I hold fast And please… please don’t say you have fallen for me! For I am tragedy, chaos, a never-ending pit Please don’t go down that road- think nothing of it! As she pleads to me… Don’t go…don’t go I’ll miss you…I care for you…I love you… And my eyes close in that frustrated pause of what may happen Cringing at the thought of losing that warmth of your cling I cannot bear to hurt you dearest one… Yet I cannot bear to stay Because if I turn once again to you, I will never see the beauty beyond us both And this, with your sacrificial tears, I simply cannot bear! Do not say so loud that you love me, I cannot bear to hear those words from your heavenly mouth They both sooth me and perturb me Can’t you see…why I must never let you have me? In many of those excruciating pauses, There were times that I begged for you to love me Searching every detail out, every crack appearing on your trembling flesh But when I saw the gaping hole that made up my closest friend, When it finally sunk in that your heart was crying for me, And me only, I remember whispering to myself, though directed at your soul, Love me when the light dims Be selfless when you must let me go I will write you poetry when I feel your heart sobbing And the laughter we have long shared will kiss your thrones of despair You will always be a deep, warm part of me A heart so jovial in outer layers, but tender in its beautiful core I will sweep my wings over you, dearest Singing and dancing around bittersweet chords For in between the rests of passion There is vast beauty beyond us “Keep yourself in mind as well” Though your heart trembled from the pangs of unsaid truths, That’s all you asked…