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Bipolar Musings

I’m either really high up Or really low down Never just simply breathing I’m either ecstatic Or simply just tragic Never quite really middling It’s either blazing light Or inky dark night Never a morning or evening I’m either fully alive Or I’m living dead Never just simply existing I’ve a mountain top life Or one mired in the trench Never level ground trekking Burning with passion Or freezing in hurt Never just lukewarm caring I’m either in love Or sizzling with hate I’m never really just flirting I’m Aphrodite one day Then Medusa the next Never just simply acting You are either my friend Or sworn enemy Never just simply mingling I’m either in heaven Or tormented in hell Never just purgatoring I wish that my life Were more even keeled Cause this is just schizophrening I’m either oddly insane Or I’m sweetly inane For a normal life I'm longing

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Timothy Hicks

Date: 5/19/2013 12:57:00 AM

Well thanks for letting me know of this piece... fits your personality to a tee! I like how you describe how you wanna find a middle ground to just relax. I like to think I'm very passionate as well... though when my soul leans more towards the negative or the angry you probably won't know about it cause I can't normally express myself in that sense (at least coherently). Perhaps in writing, but not in person to person conversation...

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 3/30/2013 7:09:00 AM

I grew up in this environment, my dad was either super high or super low and some days he could alternate more than once. My grandma suffered as well. I am very fortunate to be very consistent in mood but I do have an intimate perspective of people who suffer from this disorder.you have described it brilliantly.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 3/30/2013 7:10:00 AM

Thanks, Richard! Just so we are clear...I'M NOT BIPOLAR! I'm just very...intense! Got a poem like that coming up....SOUP MAIL! :)

Ilene Bauer

Date: 12/3/2012 3:37:00 PM

you've expressed this very well and made your feelings crystal clear - nice job!

Eileen Manassian
Date: 12/3/2012 9:53:00 PM

Thanks, Ilene! Always a pleasure to hear from you! I love it that we share the same name. :)

Mark Goodson

Date: 12/3/2012 12:33:00 PM

Bless your heart. My daughter-in-law is the same way. I love her dearly but some days I do declare what in the world is that girl a thinking.

Eileen Manassian
Date: 12/3/2012 12:41:00 PM

I struggle with depression. Some mood swings, but I'm not bipolar. I don't have the mania side, but sometimes......I do wish I could just be "normal" and not so intense. ;) Thanks for the post. People who are bipolar need a whole lot of love and PATIENCE! :) Thanks for the post!