Bipolar Abandoned
What happens when I am lonely
Reality becomes a game
Because everything becomes so phony.
Many times my emotions overwhelm me
This tortures me all day
But you'd never know unless you can
already see.
I sit inside my head
Think about horrible things
And than never make it to bed.
I know I have to get up and clean
That's how I deal with my bipolar
When I'm in a rage and being mean.
I wonder where the day has went
As if I was only on borrowed time
God to me has lent.
There's those days I feel so much energy
and power
But than there's the other days
Where I feel as shy and frigid as a flower.
Sometimes when I go to bed at night
That constant urge sets in
Preparing for fight or flight.
I have plenty of anxiety
So much that I don't eat or sleep
And tend to know no boundary.
I deal with this from day to day
Sometimes I find myself alone
In my bedroom just drifting away.
Life has always left me pondering
Will this craziness ever stop
I think I will always be wondering.
For me sometimes it's so easy to get lost
Into a world you'll never understand
Because it's a road you have not crossed!
Copyright © Angela Nowell | Year Posted 2011
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