Behind the Smile

Feeling empty inside and no one in the world sees how much pain and suffering you have endured. When you just smile and say everything’s ok or I’m fine. Knowing that everything your feeling is just the opposite. While deep down you just want to give up and die. Wondering when is the nightmare of your life going to be over with because you have no more faith in a God that promises a happy life full of loving people who are supposed to accept and love you. When you look around and see no one’s there for you. Just the devil that keeps saying lets party. I’m here and I’ll take away your pain for a while. All you have to do is pick up a bottle and keep swallowing the poison or shove another needle in your vain. Filling your blood with my poison. Knowing that when everything wears off. You’re still left with the image in the mirror. Always thinking how much more pain is there left to feel inside. Becoming Angry and blaming the world for showing you no love crying out for help but no one sees or hears you because you are always hiding everything behind the tears of a clown.