Behind My Wall

I thought I'd give it one last try; So, in my car I went. I packaged up, some things you need; And with that, love was sent. It wasn't long; just moments gone; When from my eyes I saw. My phone lit up - a text from you; A text but not a call. I picked it up, sure I would see; I'd finally gotten through; And yet, instead, you spewed your hate; Said "never come see you!". I tried so hard; to be so still; As I stood at your door.  Just leaving bags upon the ground; Then leaving, wanting more.  I've wracked my mind; night after night; I've tried to make it fit. But, in my head, it's all a mess; And broken - here we sit.  Though you are mine, my baby girl; A mom you soon will be.. It's clear to me that things won't change; I'm sorry. You blame me.  A thousand times, I've said before; Again, I'll say it too.. Apologies, I'll give to you; But, for you, that won't do.  As much as you despise me; You should look within your core.  As much as you have hated me; It's made me love you more.  But, now I must; I've no choice left.  For now, I'm at my ends. There's nothing left; it's clear to see; The two of us won't mend. So, from afar is where I'll be; Still loving you from there. I'll love you both - my Danny boy  The two most perfect pair.  Afar I'll stay; it's for the best; Cuz, I am fading fast. My heart is broke my soul is numb; I'll always live my past.  But, for us both; us three; us four... I'll stay back from you all. I'll cement blocks to keep me there; I'll stay behind my wall. Though, you may not see me, just know; Behind that wall I'll be; I'll love you till the ends of earth... Though, sadly, you won't see.