Becoming

How irritated you are by the questions that I ask, Telling me I am a nescience Talking to me is a task How easy it is to stir up contentions How hard to soften the grudge Telling me that I am the reason For the “dis” en-couragement The things I’ve said has been recorded to taint the mind The reason why you are the way you are And nothing will ever be the way it was Your love will never be the way you loved The first time you said those three words My precedence will never change your view Of how you see me now I come to a realization that things will never be the way it was Like the beginning of the love we made Or the lasting of the kisses we did not want to break Now just breaking every piece of what we ever had Remembering the times start fading Forgetting what feelings ever took place Holding on to the broken pieces That does not fit as when once whole Regret seems to seep and resentment starts to grow Here because of the choices made Tied to the promises said Here because we are not there And anywhere but here Is where I want to be Love seems to be just a word to say As feelings wither away I do not care is what is being said And two is what lay in bed Sarcasm sets the tone for replies Nothing seems to be sincere as it were Or genuine as once thought You say I don’t listen You listen too much…to negativity Though I am not the only one that speak The more you proclaim, the more I crumble The more I listen, the less I want to The more I try, the easier it is to error And the more we just don’t care The more I change The less it makes a difference The more it is that love is given The harder it is to gain the love lost The game is over is the response made Tired of what has been said and done Running out of time to win back the love When all you think is, it’s just a game Can’t win for losing and losing is what I am Losing the love you once had for me Realizing the loss, preparing for the pain Numbing what love once felt Hoping for the sun to shine after the rain But only to know, never will it be the same