Because of Him

Why do I feel so alone? Surrounded by many yet the feeling continues I realize now I’m being tested by Him But still the feeling can be unbearable I love, live, laugh, and still feel immense pain Who do I feel so unimportant? I was made by Him and He loves me But still I feel abandoned I realize He’s testing my strength How long I can go without real happiness Why do I feel so distant? As if no one really wants to get near me Showing me something is really wrong Telling me I need help I realize He’s always with me day and night Why do I feel so scared? I feel like someone is after me I’m being watched every moment Curled up in a ball under my covers Afraid to have an ounce of contact with the world Why do I feel so confused? Not knowing what I really want or what I’m looking for Trying hard to be someone everyone accepts I know He’s taking care of me all the time But still I don’t know what’s happening Why do I feel so sad? With tears rolling down my eyes Closed up in a room with no one to help Something so sweet taken away forever And not feeling loved or even spoken to Why do I feel so mad? So pissed off at the world for everything Trying my best not to lose control of myself Wishing I could easily fix my problems But He knows if I do wrong so I don’t Why do I feel so unloved? One after another they left and didn’t look back Leaving me with emptiness and despair But He loves me and I know this Because no matter the feelings I have I am blessed