Because It Hurts

So hurt I am, slowly dying inside. Frustrated because we can't make it right. Mad because I could never see, your body was here but heart was no longer with me. Sad because I can't let u go, this silence is killing me, you don't even know. Angry because I cry and I cry, and tell you my feelings and get no reply. Disappointed because we can't be together , but still I will hold on forever and ever. With high hopes on you changing, or finally able to see, that I'm what you need and with me you should be. Your ex's are nothing , is that what you want? Thought I was first in the heart, thought I was the one. Did I move to fast? Were you really not ready? How long have you felt this way? Thought I made you happy! Thought we were on the same page, I thought we felt the same. While your losing no sleep, I fight through the pain. Got me all stressed out, Tryna fight back the tears. While your heart is else where, I'm fighting for it to be here. Putting up this big fight cause I don't wanna lose you, it seems your looking else where while I'm still trying to choose you. I'm all wrapped up, you got a girl Tripping, I let my guard down, yes you caught me slipping. Three years we've been in this, so why throw it away? My heart's shattered to pieces, come make it okay. Why aren't u scared to lose me, did I mean anything? Set your pride aside for a min, I mean do u feel the same? Do u feel like I've rushed this, like I've rushed us? Please answer my questions, boy I love you so much. I just want you to hold me and make me feel safe. I want you to fight too, do what ever it takes. Are you really waiting just for me to get better. Is that really the truth? We really can't be together? I'm asking these questions cause I gotta know, was it not that deep for you to just let us go? All these un-answered questions, please just give a reply. Please don't tell me " nothing" when I'm asking you" why"? I love you so much and your blind to the facts, I'm the ride or die girl, like I'm where it's at.