Beautiful Scars
Beautiful scars
Bottles flew like hand grenades
weapons of war in a battle of rage
My first memories
were a storm of abuse
I started hiding in shame
Fear gripped my innocent soul
I wondered if I would die
There was no escape for me
I was only five
The storm subsided and an unusual calm set in
but
something was wrong I just knew it.
Underneath the facade of peace
there was a hypocritical truth
Rejection was my constant companion
all throughout my youth
My role model,
my father, I figured...
pretended I didn't exist
I was the invisible boy
looking for love
but seeing hatred in the midst
I escaped my prison of loneliness
hypocrisy and shame
thought I found my one true love
but all I got was more pain
Rejected again by someone I loved
my heart shredded inside
If not for God's love
I knew
I would have died
died of a broken heart...
shattered in a million pieces
I lived from grief to grief
only finding relief...
when pains tenacious grip on me released
So my beautiful scars go unnoticed by others
one person has seen them, my loving mother
It took awhile to heal,
I feel good now
but I keep on healing
It's hard to heal
when they keep cutting...
and it's your emotions that are bleeding.
John Derek Hamilton
Revised from Nov24,2015
April 12,2016
Copyright © John Hamilton | Year Posted 2016
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