Beast Within the Beauty

Looking in the mirror this morning Upon awakening of a dream Of a monster  That was once me  Who is this girl, this woman child That shines before me? Do I truly know her? Does the monster still lurk Behind those sad, pale eyes? I keep pointing my finger At the past At its pain At its people That I loved That I hated That tasted me wet And left me dry I am now a mother I am now my mother But always her daughter And a wife with a will I hide in my house Hoping to avoid hell If I step out into the light I'll be blinded by beauty But it's too bright for my vampire ways The sun is my foe Who once befriended me Then betrayed me with its sudden burn I'm unworthy of this beauty I don't know how to embrace her But back to the monster That pathetic, little being Beat up arms Beat down soul Needle, vein, blood, bliss Zombified Spellbound  Love,honor and obey The King of Devil's Piss Eyes staring straight Into Death's sweet face Oh, the darkness wanted me badly And still longs for me From time to time But I can't see the monster anymore I have a new life With a new pair of arms Lily white with a long line Of a sacred scar That screams "Don't forget the good ole days!" My old life in wonder Of the reflection in the mirror Smugly asking the question "Who do you think you are?"