Bad Daddy

No more daddy I shouted every time I saw your shadow. Don't kiss me or touch me, no more beating with the paddles. I can't stand the pain, why does it hurt me so bad? Why do you abuse me, you're suppose to be my dad! The night time falls, it's the worst time of the day. Daddy leave me alone, please just go away. I'm just a little girl, have not experience womanhood. Can't enjoy my first time or enjoy the things that I should. You should have loved and protected me and kept me from harm. Instead you held and caressed me with those evil arms. You stripped away my self-esteem, my beauty there is none. I just hold still and pretend I'm dead until you are done. This sad little girl growing up never knowing if true love can really be. Relationships with different men, having sex because they say they love me. My mind is confused, my goals have been scattered, my heart broken into pieces like glass that's been shattered. Can't turn back the hands of time and undo whats been done. Never hearing a forgive no not one. I'll try to forgive you, but I know i won't ever forget, reliving these moments makes me break out in a cold sweat.