Awakening

Awakening ? I have to wonder ?, if the universes, energy force, fate, karma, self-destruction, masochism, are the guiding lights, to placing myself upon the chopping block, my head into the cutout of some guillotine, laying my heart upon the fire of some funeral pyre, exposing my soul to the blade of some keen, piercing sword, letting my spirit be captured by the god, of rain so that my tears may be hidden among drops of rain, as they wash over all my pain, as I try so very hard to refrain from expressing my love, my affection, my deep desire for more than the backside of a closing door . B. J. “A” 2 November 9th 2007