Auto Pilot

Yesterday I was such a mess I didn't think I could go on Then a voice in my head told me to just shut down So that is what I did Now I find it easier to get through No feelings No emotions I wonder how long I can stay On Auto Pilot He said he can’t be around me now All he sees is damaged goods I don’t blame him one bit Especially when I can’t stand myself So I retreat Create a whole new world in my head Putting the rest of me On Auto Pilot As a child I didn’t seem to have any fear So why now am I afraid to even walk out the door? If I could spend the rest of my life curled up in a ball Hidden from the world I would But since I can’t I am left with no other choice Than to shut the feelings and emotions down And just run On Auto Pilot