Aurora

I watch the flames from a candle dance among these walls Loneliness overcomes me, crawling from my stomach out. The want, the need to hold you once more makes my arms shake An earthquake of loneliness and pain explode in my body I stare into the flames and picture you Picture how you would of looked Your smile brighter than light itself Your eyes of crystal sending rays to my heart You were my northern lights, you would show the way and help center You were going to be gorgeous More gorgeous than anything in this universe Your dimples like mine, deeper than craters Your laugh, a sweet lullaby Oh how the sun would turn your hair to golden silk, as thick as the forest cascading your frame as a glorious cape I run my fingers over my chest, over my heart The last place your head rested I close my eyes and imagine your small little body against mine once more But warm like a summer day Your breath like a whisper of wind against my skin Your fingers curled around a lock of hair I’d run my fingers over your face Tracing your features over and over again I’d sing the songs you loved, humming a tune of love I’d whisper my claims of love, my forever promises and protections You were our northern lights, you were our everything You were going to keep us grounded You were going to make me and others perfect and whole, show us the way I open my eyes and stare at the flames again Tears of a creek carry down I whisper ever so faintly, as I picture you for my final farewell, my final claim “Mommy loves you”