At Night Alone

So here I sit, at night, alone Bored and just too many cigarettes to burn So I smoke and I wait, seemingly for a call And really just ache, cause it's not coming at all You're too many miles away from home I feel the distance at night, alone I hate you for the restless nights And I hate me because I know it's not right To sit in front of the computer screen Searching for the words I just want to scream Not even knowing the pain that I feel How to describe what feels so unreal I miss, just miss, everything that is you Laughing for hours at things that you do And how could it be that this is the end What was to be a lifetime of new things to begin But here I sit, at night alone And the numbness inside is all that I know