Anxiety

So confusing to feel my always present anxiety Amplified with a constant depression in me I try to escape with outlets far from reality Unfortunate with success and side effects unpleasantly Awakening my anxiety so becomes more Too much so I try to my best for My kids, myself, I fail doing things to restore Back to the normal of what I was before Things got too complicated by choices gone bad Bottling up and ignoring the stuff that turns me sad Lose to these feelings that take all I have With fear of not changing and ending up like my Dad