Anonymous Guilt

"Roses blossom during winter" Though I've tried to write a thousand times On the deepest, darkest feelings of mine I couldn't.. Reality was my passionate friend then We lived together, ate together, danced together Slept together.. My shadows were no longer my companions Even when lights fell on me; I was blissful, gallant, happy and free... Days passed on; I grew up from my childhood I saw and felt things that were inexplicable: 'Memories' was all that I had got then, I could no longer reveal to my pen.. Yes, it was a disgrace Disgrace for my insatiable soul! That I just couldn't write anymore! Incomplete verses Here and there; Tore my heart, Gave me the scare.. Am I lost? Am I dead? Can I no longer be the one who fed On words, feelings, beauty and love? Am I gone like the stars above? Answer me,oh! God..is it true? That I'm a dead creature in this green and blue! "Help me, someone!"- I cried like a wimp: "Oh! please someone spare me this guilt!" No one answered, not a single soul, I was lost, dead, barren, alone, Dead were my dreams Dead were my smiles 'Memories' that I had Were forgotten rhymes... ~~Thank You for the reviews and comments~~