An Unwanted Gift

We crossed paths on a cool autumn day I was speechless and didn’t know what to say You were the finest thing I’d ever laid eyes on Something about you had me magnetically drawn I already had someone so I should have kept walking But you had me enamored with your pleasant talking You captivated me and I couldn’t stop my actions It all happened so fast, an unstoppable chain reaction The lust was overpowering and I couldn’t think clearly I cheated on my boyfriend, the one I love so dearly Butterflies in chaotic flight, emotions so very high Anticipation pressured me and I didn’t know why I gave myself willingly to a man I barely knew And after the guilt hit me, I began feeling so blue Asking myself questions like WHY? and HOW? Unsure of what the consequences would be now. My conscience ate at me like I was consumed with maggots Leaving me lifeless, there’s no way to backtrack it I’ve done what I’ve done and I want him to forgive me I’m sorry for my actions and my boyfriend believes me Before he loves me again, he wants me to go get checked I’d do anything for him and I refused to object A week later, I retrieved my results, had no need to worry But I should have; the stranger I knew gave me HIV…