An Eternal Pain

An Eternal Pain When you are there, your silence gives me pain When I don’t find you, I suffer but in vain Both your presence and absence trigger my tears to drain My sufferings aroused within me a situation so critical This lethal agony of my life is seriously suicidal In all directions of my life, I wonder like a stray I am striving with a pathetic feeling of dismay I suffer as you do not notice me Neither you recognize me nor you feel free Why are you a stranger? Am I some one so new? Albeit a stranger, why I feel myself so close to you Your existence in my vicinity is like a heavenly phenomena But your alienated attitude paralyses me with critical trauma The moment of your departure overwhelms me with immense grief and sorrow Such intense sense of trauma can neither be borne nor someone can borrow Being a stranger but yet so familiar is an experience of mystery I wanna be with your present, wanna be with the dreams of your future but never become your past history I don’t know what reason would attract your attention to make me familiar Wish for a magical weapon that shatters your attitude of being a stranger This miserable state of my life I can't tolerate any longer Wish for an occasion to express myself to you Seems an awkward desire as u consider me so new When shall I be blessed to be embraced by your mesmerizing grace Or else I would indulge in terminating this suicidal life race Wish for a gracious event when your holy heart connects with mine Or else I would completely immerse in darkness and never shine I shall wait forever to experience this precious moment of life For fulfilling this sacred desire, to any extent I am willing to strive My pathetic emotions won’t allow my soul to rest in peace Still I shall always consider you as an eternal bliss!! Thank You