Am Dying of Cancer

I fight everyday to live I have cancer My doctor say I don't have long to live Am only 29 I only begin living my life I will die not every hold or seeing my kids again I try to be close to family but I only push them away I can't sit here and say I am not sacred Because that be a lie. All I do is pray But Is that truly going to be enough I will leave this earth When the lord is ready for me Am mother daughter and a sister Will anyone even cry when I'm gone Or will the rejoice once I'm gone My body is in pain There are days I go without sleep Because I am scare I will not awake up I spend most days inside because I hurt to bad even get off my sofa I don't want to die But I can not control what the lord want's for me.