Alone Inside

The thoughts of worse times, reality faced Through my head the terror's been traced From years and years of neglect and denials Emotional baggage that goes on for miles Deep inside the pain is real and alive I can't smile, no matter how hard I strive Outside I'm calm, you'd never see the pain All night the tears just pour like rain When I close my eyes, I see my mistakes No good luck, no favors, and no breaks Everything I know I've learned on my own The rules of family and life weren't shown Bitterness rises up like bile in my throat The crap around my heart is like a moat Locking out love and trapping in the pain Sometimes I even wonder if I am still sane I look at the stars, the moon, and the sun And try to remember when it all begun Long ago before I could protect myself I was put up like a toy on a shelf Trusting everyone, getting heart broke Then I decided I am not a funny joke I woke up and saw the light up ahead And the pain and anger I finally shed Happiness now, I can finally start to see How true love and life are meant to be Take it from me, for I've been there before You'll get fed up and won't take anymore You'll walk away without a second glance Being wiser and smarter for the next chance Guard your heart tightly and be very aware Because bad people are actually everywhere One more thing to say before I go away Live life to it's fullest each and every day