Alone

Alone © Ben Burton 11-24-2014 I wish I weren't alone I wish I could atone If only I had known How time is so soon gone Watching my four-legged friend get run down by a car Drinking at a never-ending string of nameless bars Drifting aimlessly while seeing others make their marks Letting go the only one who ever held my heart I always felt alone And played the game all wrong My self-fulfilling tome The final page unfolds I observe without incentive, without motive, will, or drive Gazing as the real world in slow motion passes by But for this deep depression there's no part of me alive Survival seems afflictive when compared with suicide Can't face life all alone It's time to move along Will hymns or prayers or songs Help sanctify these bones If I am grieved it will not be by anyone I know I once had several human friends, but years have severed those I harbor no self pity though my words may not seem so If I could have one final wish, I'd wish I weren't alone