All I'Ve Ever Wanted

I wanna cry out loud, I wanna shed my tears I wanna run away, run away from here I wanna close my eyes and feel no hurt or pain I wanna take a different path, my heart will not explain I wanna feel the cold, dead cold I mean inside I wanna see eternal fire before it passes by I wanna leave my body and take only my soul I wanna tell you how I feel but constantly I fold I wanna feel desired without the act of lust I wanna have relationships that's built only on trust I wanna feel the love, the love that never dies I wanna hear the truth for once and not a pack of lies I wanna feel alive, alive and not alone I wanna tell the world my existence will be known I wanna walk around and never have to hide The truth around myself is all I want is to survive Written at what should have been one of the best times in my life(marriage) but instead it turned out to be a nightmare. I wrote this because I was feeling insecure and alone,confused and hurt, weary and afraid. I just kept asking myself and wondering, Could anyone relate to me??