All In the Mind

Im staring into the sky and on my knees. Can someone please pray for me? I'm really scared and lost. I can see the future but what is the cost? I feel like God hates me, Because I lied and I'm not the person I could be. I remember in the summer I was like a saint. But now I don't know what I am if I looked in the mirror and started to paint. I'm just looking for some life support, But they just threw me in court. Started to judge me, when they don't know nothing of me.  Music helped me more than church. I apologize if that statement hurt. I'm not trying to make it skins vs shirts. Y'all might of saved a life,  but not mine. I'm not trying to pick a fight with you. I'm just lost and I don't know what to do. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one in these shoes. Only in a one man crew, only one single dude. I got nothing and I feel like I'm in the nude.-Mario Perez