Agony

The agony He is not driving today to Lisbon to see a surgeon who will check if the operation was successful The nervous tension of the day of waiting has brought in the shingle an illness so utterly depraved. He has been partially successful in pretending the pain had nothing to do with him and the ability to function but there are nights when the illusion does not work and he sinks into a vortex of suffering he cannot share as sympathy from those concerned can bring on a feeling that life is unfair to him alone. The world is on the very cusp of a nuclear war due to different faction vying for power, his problem is minor