Afterlife

There is a her shaped hole in this world A black void If you look hard enough you can still see the sparkles of the departed Black diamonds of the afterlife The entrance left open In case he needs to follow It's not in the leaving she said It's in the living once I'm dead The cold cold bed Sat in our room The silence in the telephone This is what the worst will be The carrying on without me It isn't in the leaving she sighs It's in the knowing I didn't survive She asked him once to be brave Carry on forget her name Give some meaning to his life Leave behind the cold dead wife How can you love me she asked When all I want is to depart How am I faithfully yours she cried He just looked at her and sighed It isn't in the leaving she cried It's in the living once I've died Where I'm going has no name The darkness consumes me again and again I'll wait for you she said She promised as in life and death I warned you along the way she said I tried to make you see I never belonged to your world I was never truly me I belong to the nether world I was put here by mistake I'm waiting for it to draw me back To take again my place This is what she's seeing there He's too used up to even care Watching his restless nights and days Keeping the haunting mind at bay The last vision in his head is his wife hanging above the bed