After the Sunset

For many sunsets I missed you when I was lonely & sad For just as many sunrises I missed you when I was happy & glee But it was a harsh reality that you are missing from me and that is just too bad It was time for a new beginning, to be free For many moons, my thoughts returned to you Maybe it was silly to miss what we could never really have Saudade or afeto, it mostly made me blue Whatever, it was time to be brave I was broken, lost, without any place to be I chose hope, and believed everything was possible I prayed to God to show me the right way so I could see I accepted my faults and know I was responsible Being strong was my only option But I had to duck and dive and empower mind over matter I took control of my situation With patience and time, things got better Loneliness sometimes visited still Especially when my thoughts returned to you Life was after all no fairytale and sometimes still uphill What was up with you, I had absolutely no clue I paid my dues, learned my lesson, love and lost I grew, I had no idea how strong I could be Drowned in writing, I did what I do best And with lots of practise became a better version of me Heaven is where you chose it to be Every day can be a new beginning Live and let live, that is the key Leave the past, its not over till the final inning One day it may make sense why it wasnt 'us for good' to be