Afraid

Deep down Is an eternal fight Inside I’m fighting For my life I feel In constant danger Though I’m the one With all the anger Upon myself I inflict the pain To make the sound And world go away Physically I’m here But I’m really not there Stuck in fantasies ‘Cause reality is to hard to bear I’m lost in thoughts Lost in my head All my dreams Are gone and dead I want people And the world to go away To be alone And get rid of my pain You could never understand All the stuff I’ve been through All the blood that’s dripped like a tear drop in the rain That would burn right through you I’ve been touched in private places With unknown hurtful hands Tried to cry, plead, and tell a mother Who never understands I deny But I am ashamed I’m lost and hurt I feel sad and betrayed I keep lying to myself I’m confident, I’m tough It doesn’t affect me I’ll never give up But if only someone Would see the hole inside If someone could fill it And give me some pride Because I’ve been Abandon, neglected, and abused I’m at war with myself But afraid I will lose