Addiction

Why have you plagued me? Why have you latched on my soul not ready to leave? What's my offense? Why have you fought my desires to do away with you? Why have you cried me to sleep? Why have you drained me? Why have you over stayed your welcome? Why have you driven important people out of my life? Why? (X3) I ask again why? Why have you decided to mess with my fragile emotions? You've wounded my heart You've tortured my body You've battered my vision I tried to dialogue with you But when I thought you agreed You came back like you never left You came in stronger than you have ever been You beat me to it I gave up I then remembered that even in defeat My anchor ? isn't on you It's on Him I soon got strength to fight back I fought really hard this time I stayed strong Until I found myself slipping back into your grip I tried everything I could but couldn't hold any longer I found myself almost giving up again I found my lost wing to fly But it was broken How do I fix you? How do I fly out of this mess? When did I break my wings without realising it? Now I'm left to fight this fight I thought to myself it's inconsequential fighting you again I lost faith I lost hope What remained Was a dashed soul Killed my emotions To strive whole I soon became A cold heart Dead to feelings Dead to pains Feeling numb I cared less Well it's life I stressed more Stress got me bickered From my drowning thoughts. I'm coming for you To put an end to you I've gotten all I need To destroy you I won't take L's this time around You are free "He said to me" I regained my stance My strength came from a higher power than I could fathom His light lit in my darkness Finally rays of hope I shouted, I'm a winner, don't dare me Thank you Jesus ???? You did this......