A Void

My life is everything that I feel, some parts doesn't even seem real. Days go by were I am starting to feel old. Therefore, parts of my life effects my soul. It feels like I have a big void in my life, no matter what I say or do it just doesn't seem right. At times I am by myself with nothing to do. People tell me it just takes one and not two. My blessing has come and gone, now I feel like I can not hang on. Tell me what is that void missing out of my life. It feels like it's not having a complete family or being a wife. I pray and ask God to give me strength, because I can't take anymore. I didn't think part of my life required me having to pick you up off the floor. Lonely, scared, sad and many more feelings in between. However, this is one picture I did not want to be seen. Tell me why do I have this hole in my heart. I hope it will leave and not take a part of my soul. My soul was giving to me by God and I want to give it back. It's hard at times, because it's something in my life that I lack. All my feelings life and soul was giving to you. In your hand you are giving it back, because you don't know what to do. I remember your exact words. "GET OUT AND TAKE YOUR THINGS". I guess you forgot, I worked hard and all those things I did bring. I know you told me you were trying to make it day by day, but I know without me you will forget your way. I know you were not perfect and neither am I, but all you did was tear out my heart and made me cry. I love you with all my heart and always will, but my soul I will not let you keep or steal. I am finally saying good-bye and walking out the door and this part of my life will not cause a void anymore.