A Tire Romantic

i dont know why just going through my life never assume to say the truth i know im a equal am i craze? or sane? did i lose my brain i got some faith i dont know if it will still be there sorry if bold but thats what i fear when youre near i got a heart just dont know where to start im tire of playing darts with my heart i feeling hollow like i dont even got a soul always alone by myself dont know if im going to heaven or hell wont know again sorry if rude or bold but im just feeling cold blooded music is bliss i just feeling empty like i wish i didnt feel a thing rather feel the pain i might to be to be blame is it wrong to let go of emotions like regret heart break beliefs some days or even just letting go of hate i know i cant change my fate never will have a happy ending but i standing i fear everything but poetry is what really keeps me standing truthfully i must be confusing lyrics is part of expression am i wrong? to type this song ladies are hot truthfully but i must be damn right confusing if i feeling like i wish she was here but i still fear. im living my life she nowhere in sight. i know i shouldnt think of suicide i wont do it anyways but im truly thinking i feel empty like nobody knows how it feels when young and not knowing anyone or having friends just to talk to without fearing if they got hurt or worry about if they'll stop talking to me i must be damn right confusing but this is my story like i don't even know how to speak properly always alone i know i have optionalities but in the end im alone like i don't know what to say to them i pray a lot saying amen but i dont think im going to heaven i go to church regularly my belief is the only thing that's keeps me standing if i commit suicide i know i wouldn't see god in the afterlife that one belief is what keeps me smiling and hoping one day ill find a girl who will like me and one day get marry i must sound goofy or dumb but that i wish for ill never cheat on her i hope she'll feel the same for one day i will be at peace with somebody who like me for me im straight i fear outcomes everyday but i overcame i belief body language and tone, wording plus manners loyalty plus understanding matters most so why am i all alone being single is not as fun i must be dumb being turned 21 jan. 28 but what can i say i am not brave i'm just tire of being this way im a romantic music is bliss but AZ is truly confusing i give dabs to anyone but so far nobody figure out whats in my heart so far....