A State of Confusion

In a state of confusion, I was confused Pill after pill I had lost all sense of pride In a world of seclusion, feeling the blues Why I was so intent on committing suicide But because I just felt so dam depressed A continual verse, a never ending episode Always I'd be stuck within this huge mess Again here I am I'm stuck in reverse mode At the time it were my only cure for this illness But not the first, a time bomb about to explode Losing battle with ones self, thoughts manifest From bad to worse, I'm on a long winding road Dealing with so much heartache and pain inside Not what I'd again choose but my only solution I felt it was the only way off this rollercoaster ride With don'ts and doe’s, in this state of confusion A POEM INSPIERD BY A FRIEND FROM COV( JULY - 1997) written at a low point in my life between October 1997 and July 1998 some bits were rewritten between 2000 and 2001 and again chopped and changed between 2007 and 2012 this version 2012 resalvaged --------- >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> this version i feel better than the rest as explains in better context hw i was but also puts a positive spin on the present i suppose your expiearces are what forms who you are as a person thats what builds your character though probably not s wild now as I used to be >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> also the first time id ever wrote anything where inspiration came from surrounds at time this a little personal or though kept a little boarder line written by myself DAVIDSCOTT 2012''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''